I’m stuck and it’s all my fault. Well, maybe not all of it, but some of it is. I’ve lost 25 years, I should have had ten books published by now, but what can I do? The business of publishing is slow, and I really mean, really slow. Of course you can self-publish which is the ultimate way to go in the 21st century. But, for me it doesn’t end there it just keeps starting over and over again. I know I don’t have much more time on this planet but, I am looking for at least another 40 or 50 years or so, though.
Part of my dilemma is my retirement. Yes, good old retirement. I really didn’t want to retire, it was kind of forced onto me on two fronts. I could have stayed with the company but I would have been put back on the assembly line where I started 41 years ago. That wasn’t going to happen because, that is a young man’s job and I am not a spring chicken anymore.
On the other hand, the company I worked for, offered me an early retirement and a bunch of money to leave. I would have, should have stayed at least one more year. But, that same year I found out I had cancer and that was the final vote.
But, I had not really planned for retirement, just then. I figured I had another 10 years to work and, at the time, I was only 53 years old. I had only saved, well, not quite enough. I had figured that my money would run out in a few years, and they I would have to look for a job to get by. That is where the writing aspect came into being. Plus I had to travel to other parts of the world.
It has been slow, writing, to a small degree, but I figure that the more I write…well, it had got to get better, I hoped, so far so good, just late. The publishing business, on the other hand, that’s the 800 pound gorilla in the room. It’s not so big that I can’t handle it, though. The problem it would seem is looking for help, not with the writing but in all the aspect of writing and publishing.
For the longest time I have joined writer’s groups and asked for help to read my stories and proofreading and editing but, I really only asked friends and family. So I would become stuck and I would have to wait for them to give me some kind of answer. Heck, a simple, “I like it” or “I don’t like” would have done wonders for me. But even that didn’t happen. I would have to wait and wait and wait for an answer and that usually never came. People would just never get back with me, or, all of a sudden they get busy and their careers suddenly picked up.
The writer’s groups, well let’s just say they had a different agenda, an agenda that usually had to do with writing but writing and working for and with the community. I didn’t have a problem with that in any way, I just never got any help with my books or stories. I really felt let down.
So, here I am now, stuck. Not all my fault, though. My book has been finished for some time now and I have been going over and over to find all the problems. I did find someone to read it for me and they found all the little things that I missed. All corrected. I read and re-read my story until I was read out. I am ready to publish it, but I’m stuck.
I asked someone to do a cover for me a couple of years ago and this person did a beautiful job! He did it because he is a friend of my son and he said would help me out; I totally appreciated his help to the nth degree. But what he did was use the faces of two actors and there was no way I could use the cover he made.
I know that he is busy; he has his own business doing artwork for others. So, I it let go for a few… But after a while he didn’t answer his email, so I kind of gave up. Later he told me that I could do this or that to rectify the problem. All I had to do was go and buy some camera equipment and green screens and find some models take pictures of them and he would crop their faces in for the cover.
As funny as that is I guess I could have done that…if I was in my 20s and had the time to learn other things. As it was I was still trying to learn my craft, writing. And believe me, there is still a lot to learn, especially in regard to the business of publishing. I got a lot of advice from other friends, learn how to use Photoshop. Okay, I thought I’d give it a try.
I ended up learning, thanks YouTube, a little bit, like cutting and pasting and then smoothing the finished product out. I did a cover, to which, I got a few thumbs up from the few who saw the cover. But, it didn’t have that dynamic look to it as the other cover had. His cover looked like it belonged on a book.
Am I really stuck? Yes and no. Right now I don’t have the money to pay someone to do my cover art, so I am kind of stuck. I have to get back with my friend and get him to finish what he started; it’s been three months since I totally finished my book. Do I use my cover or do I wait for him to get back with me?
Decisions, decisions, decisions. I am thinking that I could go ahead and self-publish a hard copy with my cover. And when my friend ever finishes his cover I could publish an eBook and see where that goes. I do plan to give myself a couple more days and I will hope for the best because…I am getting hungrier by the day.
SN: do I use this cover? The cover that I created? Or…
Do I wait for my artist friend to finish and use his cover? Mind you, He created this cover April of 2012, and have bugged him since. I wanted to publish February 1st but moved it March 1st… Now??